Thursday, February 27, 2014

rolling stone

finn has never been keen on change. his reaction to jeff traveling for work, family trips away from home, visitors coming and going, new experiences (like school or places he has never been before), or even trying new foods, always manifest in the same way - tantrums, grumpy moods, emotional outbursts and many tears. there is usually a week long period of adjustment for him and a great deal of challenge and patience required of jeff and i as we try our very best to help him through a period of discomfort. many nights i lay awake with a tear soaked pillow wondering how i can possibly handle another day of this, questioning my abilities as a mother (as we do), and worried that this is all will negatively effect the person he is meant to become. it's hard work! often chaotic and many times very frustrating. but it's also a little bit reassuring to know he is content and most comfortable when we are all together. he thrives in our day to day routine with predictable outcomes and familiar surroundings. through all the struggle is a pure and sweet little heart trying its best to figure out how to cope with something we all struggle with on some level. 

and always, after the darkest of storms, the clouds part and the sunshine peeks through- he is a happy and loving little soul once again. i was lucky enough to have 5 whole days of this wonderful and sweet child to myself during the last half of jeff's spain trip. these pictures were taken by stephanie on our day trip to bowen island- finn is always happiest outside- near the water is a bonus, and having rocks to throw... well, thats the perfect trifecta. 

Friday, February 21, 2014

best friends & bowen island

my bestest friend was here this past week (with her amazing mom and sweet baby myles who is getting way too big too fast.) its hard to miss someone so deeply, only to have them visit and realize you miss them so much more than you thought you did. my heart aches being away from steph, but having her here and being able to cuddle that little dumpling baby of hers was exactly what my gloomy winter heart needed.

now if only i could keep them here forever.

we took a little day trip over to bowen island- with two kids in tow, it was a hilarious, sometimes hectic and whirlwinded trip, but it really was an incredible day. sunny, beautiful, perfectly warm and the best company i could have asked for. i love you, steph.

Sunday, February 16, 2014

day dreaming

i find myself day dreaming about new spaces lately- torn between wanting something new, clean and modern, or rustic, character filled and far away from the hustle and bustle. that has always been my crux in life - two polar opposite ideals being longed for, and i feel like it shows a little bit in how i pick pieces for our home- this odd mix of modern, simple, occasionally scandinavian, tossed about with clutter filled nooks, old chairs, and chipped-paint everything.

at this moment, this home is complete perfection to me. its simple and bright, but still has some incredible rustic touches that make me swoon (the wood burning stove!! the claw foot tub!! that incredible outdoor space (with cold frame garden beds!!) SWOON!!)

all images via ann street studio 

Saturday, February 15, 2014

littlest yogi

finn has been pretty interested in yoga lately. regularly asking to get out a yoga mat, and eagerly showing off his tree, dead bug and 'down boy' (downward facing dog) poses for anyone willing to humour him.

i was excited to find a wonderful series of yoga videos made especially for kids. cosmic kids yoga is really amazing as they tell elaborate, creative and interesting stories while talking kids through an entire series of poses. it kept finn's interest fully peeked (for the entire 15 minutes! a feat in itself!) and he had the biggest smile on his face the whole way through.

now if only i could muster this same kind of enthusiasm and motivation… ;)

Friday, February 14, 2014


jeff has been in spain for work this past week, so finn and i have been trying to get by without him. thankfully, we have a few wonderful friends by our side making this haul a bit more bearable. my sweet friend carina invited myself, our friend katie, and our kids out to her in-laws place in tswawwssen for the weekend. its a beautiful spot right on the ocean with a cozy fireplace and just enough distance from the city to make it feel like a holiday. the water was completely frozen over while we were there, giving off this eery, different planet kind of vibe. the kids ran wild, we ate delicious food, drank lots of wine, lazed about, did puzzles, saw bald eagles and genuinely enjoyed each others company.

thank you carina and katie for being wonderful friends with exceptionally wonderful children. xo