I stumbled across an incredible story this morning- The Julie Project is a photo documentary by Darcy Padilla of one of the saddest and most incredible journeys of a woman's life and her ongoing struggles to keep her family. It had me in tears for hours and even still, I find myself with a heavy heart and continually thinking about how endless sadness fills every photograph. It also, inevitably, made me think about Finn. How any mother would do anything for their child- how much your love for them overpowers ANY other feeling in life. We are so incredibly blessed with good families and upbringings, unconditional and abundant love, incredible and vastly extended support systems, and the ability to easily care and provide for our family without fear of Finn ever being taken away from us or going without basic needs. Such simple things that we seemingly take for granted every day. I am so grateful for the life I have been given. We are so truly blessed.
Friday, January 28, 2011
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
We have a small little condo that we have lived in for about 5 years. It's a really great place- we have a yard for peau, lots of great neighbours, and we have come to LOVE our community for more reasons than just being close to most everything. The one downside is we only have one bedroom, so with the addition of our little man, extra space has become somewhat of a commodity. We really try to limit our consumption and have been very conscious about the things we get for Finn as to not completely bombard our small space (or him), but inevitably, the list of 'stuff' keeps growing and soon enough, we will need to find a new place to call home. The idea of moving somewhere else makes me feel unsettled. This has been our home through so many milestones now, and there is a lot to love about it. I like that we are all together tucked in sharing this little space- sitting in the living room drinking tea with chapeau on my lap while Jeff edits photos and Finn plays next to me is my idea of perfect. It makes me feel closer and easily connected with everyone here, and our ability to spend time together is inevitably simplified. The thought of having a house with stairs or more than a few rooms makes me really... antsy- Like it's the first step in drifting apart. I do realize this probably sounds a bit crazy, but even the idea of Finn having his own bedroom makes me a little blue. I know when the time comes it will be an emotional adventure, but in the meantime, I am focusing on the fact that it doesn't really matter where we go, how much or how little space we have, we are a family... and home is really wherever we are together. Home is wherever I'm with you.
Sunday, January 16, 2011
I made a really yummy concoction the other night- I'm calling them sloppy janes and they are a vegetarian twist on the old fashioned sloppy joes. Supper easy, packed full of yumminess and good for you too!
(serves 2 generously)
1 tbsp olive oil
1/2 onion, finely chopped
1/2 pepper, finely chopped
1 clove of garlic, grated or minced
1 jalapeno, finely chopped, seeds removed
1 tsp cumin
1 tsp coriander
1 tbsp chilly powder
1 can black beans, rinsed
1 can tomatoes (crushed, stewing... whatever you have - 15 oz size)
1 tbsp worcestershire sauce
1 tsp brown sugar
1 tsp hot sauce
salt & pepper to taste
cilantro & a good cheese for garnish (both optional)
In a saucepan, fry onion, pepper, garlic and jalapeno in olive oil until soft (6 - 8 minutes)
Add black beans, cumin, coriander, and chilly powder and continue to cook until warm
In a small bowl, mix tomatoes, worcestershire sauce, brown sugar and hot sauce
Add tomato mixture and S&P to fry pan and cook until hot through out- lower heat and simmer until liquid reduces (10-15 minutes)
Serve on of fresh crusty buns- top with fresh cilantro and a yummy strong cheese if desired. (We used a nice old dubliner!)
Friday, January 14, 2011
finn has seriously bulked up lately. he started out as such a skinny little squirt but really has caught up to his baby buddies in the past few months. we weighed him last night, and he rang in at a whooping 18.6lbs! (and our scale is notoriously on the light side.) its all happening so quickly though- it has honestly been the fastest year of my life, and knowing that i have to head back to work in april is weighing heavy on my heart. i cant imagine the days when i dont get to spend all my time just hanging with finn. and to add to that stress, finn has become the worst nighttime sleeper with no signs of improvement. he is up every 2 hours like clockwork, and i am at a loss of what to do to help change that. time will tell i suppose. until then, i am trying to just enjoy the time i do have with my sweet man- sleep or no sleep.